Music, Silence and Time

I love listening to music, I do it every single day. As soon as I get home I fly straight onto my laptop and the first thing I do is stick on some music just so that I don't have to listen to the silence. Even now while I'm writing this blog I'm listening to music. Silence is a very hard thing to find as there is always noise around. Whether it's from cars or from music. I'm always surrounded by noise. 


I also spend a lot of time picking out my favourite tracks and putting them into different playlists. This thing "time" is something I find very hard to give over to God. It's not like I have a busy schedule it's just that I always seem to find something to do other than giving some time to God. The "Quiet time" is what I find hardest. The silence scares me a little as I always seem to be surrounded by noise but when I get away from the noise what do I do? I don't hear anything in the silence. I don't hear the whisper of God that so many people speak of hearing in their quiet time. When I hear people talk about hearing the voice of God I have this strange optimism about it. Are the people who talk about hearing God's voice to large audiences really doing it just to glorify themselves?


I have a lot of questions but the main one that always seems to get back to me is "Is it wrong for me to question other peoples experiences in their Christian lives?". I believe everyone must at least once question someone else's faith. I do not have the right to judge other people, especially about their faith, as I'm not perfect, but our human instinct is to continuously judge. We're only human. We all make mistakes and we all boast about certain aspects of our faith but keep other parts of our faith that we know we haven't got it all right.


This is where the flaw to my faith comes back in. I don't spend as much time with God as I should, even though I know how easy it is to spend time with him. It's just trying to get into the habit of doing it every day. In the past I've tried it but then one night I'd feel too tired and say "I'll do it tomorrow" but the old saying comes into play "Tomorrow never comes.". Now since I've written this blog I'm going to try and spend more time with God and I hope that those who read this blog are inspired to start to spend more time with God as well.